Sing Fly Love

I am batshit. Certified, in fact. I’m diagnosed with almost 10 different DSM codes; most significantly of which is Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID); more commonly known as “multiple personalities.” I have been writing these posts in my mind for so long and I have never found a way to get them out of my head…Read more »

Doilies and Death

Sometime in the next handful of days, I’ll be leaving my safe little world of nothingness that I’ve settled into here in the middle of nowhere. Despite my previous “shithole” post and less than flattering description of the community I’ve called “home” the past few weeks, I have to admit this is a nice little…Read more »

Itchy Fingers

Oh, how badly I want to break my promise to myself about not editing and deleting what I’ve (we’ve) posted. Oh how much I want to delete this account and disappear completely; taking its posts and comments with it. Oh how I wish I could just Shut. The. Fuck. Up. But then a dose of…Read more »

Beauty in the Shit Hole

Being on a disabled pension and not having a home of my own leaves me with quite the paradox of limitless freedom and agonizing dependency. I can go anywhere I want, stay as long as I’d like and do anything with my time I desire but I often must depend on others to host me…Read more »

More Blasts from the Past

As I go through the files on my iCloud drive and read the things I wrote in the past, it’s a strange feeling. I feel so distant from the author of these ramblings, so inspired by their insightfulness and impressed by their freedom in flow of thought. I’m jealous of myself – of the me…Read more »

Read the Fucking Profile, Asshat

This title isn’t “mine.” I mean…it’s mine but I have no memory of writing the title, the profile that followed it or the dating platform on which it was written. I stumbled across this little snarky prose today as I was browsing through files on my iCloud drive; looking for something else I’m sure I…Read more »

Challenges? LMFAO

Today’s writing prompt is “write down the biggest challenges you are facing right now.” LMFAO. How cute. I had an emergency session with my shrink today after sending her this email: I’m pretty sure the part of me who was a successful professional has rejoined me somehow but not fully. I still only sense the…Read more »

USers

A while back, I was having a conversation with a close friend about being American. ‘It’s it funny,” I asked her “how we call ourselves American? Isn’t that a perfect example of our collective narcissism; calling ourselves after the continent as if we are the only humans who count on this entire chunk of land?”…Read more »

Gratitude List

“Make a list of things you’re grateful for.” This is the next writing prompt in my book designed to lead me out of depression and anxiety. I’m still holding onto my judgement on the author of this book. I’m resisting the urge to simply list the fact that IF I ever do write my book,…Read more »

Greatest Qualities

I’ve had such a difficult time writing for the past few months during the pandemic. Actually, that’s not true. I’ve been writing but my words end up sitting in the drafts because I’m pretty sure the federal police would be snatching me up in one of those unmarked vans I keep seeing in the news.…Read more »

To Be Continued…or Not

I crack my windows open and the cool winds and bird songs breeze into the room. “Hello, God,” I think as I can feel my soul mend a tiny bit to the sound of the Stellar Jay who lives in the tree right outside my window. “It’s so nice to know you’re still here. The…Read more »